Last night at the Recovery ministry meeting, I spoke about feeling like I've set the sword in the sand and am clinging on to it with both hands as the evil winds try and keep me from the purpose with what God has given to me.
The direction I seem to get from the devotion today gives me that same feeling, that I've come against a wall and God wants me to pray it out; not muscle my way through. "For a son dishonors his father, a daughter rises up against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law--- a man's enemies are the members of his own household. But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me." Micah 7:6-7 The 'family' in this context seems to be those in the extended family; the body of Christ.
I would love nothing better than to have employment that would answer the needs of the family, that would fix the financial troubles we've been beset with, and would fix the vehicles and the rest of the woes we have been under stress about. But I don't and the prayers have not been definative on changing the job I do have yet. Yet, only a friend stepped forward to assist my family in this need.......and it was timely and Godly.
I would love nothing more than to give definitive and definate proof to those who would doubt the Lord's call into the ministry, the 'oh yeah' moment that I don't have to give. God hasn't moved those people into helping realize the call.....and I have to accept that.
There is a direction that is coming from the Lord and it looks like it might take me down a lonely path, without many of my brethren I currently know, but it will ultimately lead where God would have me go.
Changes in the wind are coming, I can smell them (as my Grandpa used to say).
In Christ,
Jim
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