Wednesday, March 31

Surrounded…….

"When Elisha's servant got up the next morning, he saw that Syrian troops had the town surrounded."Sir, what are we going to do?" he asked. "Don't be afraid," Elisha answered. "There are more troops on our side than on theirs." Then he prayed, "LORD, please help him to see." And the LORD let the servant see that the hill was covered with fiery horses and flaming chariots all around Elisha." (2 Kings 6:15-17 CEV)

It has always struck me as funny, picturing Elisha's servant running around bellowing out his fears to the prophet who sits calmly nearby…his head probably following his hectic servant's nervous circuit. Seeing the lack of his master's reaction, the servant demands an answer…..respectfully. And, after telling him what he should already know….Elisha stepped out of God's way and let God reinforce the information.

God was glorified in what the servant saw…….

All because of Elisha's closeness to God and the purpose to which he had been called. There is telling peace when God is near us, when our brother-by-adoption, co-heir and King stands in the gap with us and it transforms us from worldly-centered people to a people who are 'not from this world.' Being submissive, as Pastor Shannon has said in the past, to impact positively upon God's reputation. Elisha submits to God's plan in such a way that it is merely an afterthought to him to pray from revelation for his servant.

God equips the called, rather than calling the equipped but not because He cannot use those who are equipped rather that His glory and power is amplified in the vacuum of man's improbability and impossibility. The more impacting the experience, the more necessary to expose the root of the reasoning behind it….and when all things are considered; the rubble removed and the debris swept up the only thing that can explain the improbable and impossible is God.

Elisha's servant had been with him for some time…..one would think that he would know that God's hand was upon this prophet who had received a "double portion of Elijah's spirit" and therefore would expect amazing things to happen around him. Elisha was known as a man who acted quickly, without hesitation, at God's beckoning regardless of personal costs. Known as "the healer" to Elijah's status as "the destroyer," Elisha brought the message of confession….that God was God alone and there can be no other. This "quiet beneficence" (Faussett's bible dictionary) was born in gentleness to those who confessed Jehovah as Eel (God alone) and a fiery indignation to those apostolate kings to which Israel suffered during his life. God teaches His children to trust Him in small as in greater difficulties. He who numbers our very hairs regards nothing as too small to be brought under His notice." Elisha taught his nation that God can as easily make any hard, heavy hearts that are burdened with the weights of this world and so mired in the mud of the decay float again upon life's crystal clear water through a development of a heavenly perspective regardless of the circumstances.

A deep relationship with an impossible God.

There is a quote from Thomas a Kempis that struck me today as I was thinking of this verse…..and the blog that was waiting to develop around it. "Thanks be to Thee, O Lord Jesus Christ, for all the benefits which Thou hast given us, for all the pains and insults which Thou hast borne for us. O most merciful Redeemer, Friend, Brother, May we know Thee more clearly, love Thee more dearly, and follow Thee more nearly; for Thine own sake!" This is quoted by Ken Boa in his book, Conformed in His Image, one of the textbooks that I will be responsible for learning in my Spiritual Formation class that I want to take this May at Moody Theological Seminary-Michigan. Elisha showed his servant how deep, driven and passionate relationship with God brings about some pretty awesome protection in uncertain times…..even when the deck seems stacked against you. Kempis remarks that it is for our sake that we seek a deeper relationship even though the spectacular glory that is brought through the blessings received or the correction garnered is all about God.

Some would say that it is impossible for me to pursue a Master of Divinity degree at MTS-M and upon the surface of it all; even I would have to submit to being surrounded by those mistakes, those improbabilities and unreasonable expectations if I looked outside the city gates and saw the vast army of reasoned fellows standing in the way. Some I could solve; take a loan out to pay for school…providing I could get one, seek out a benefactor who would foot the bill, or just take up the mantel of the foreign missionary and do God's work elsewhere so that the impossibility of it all just fades away like the mist.

But God is all for the spectacular and impossible.

"There are so many opportunities available to God's kids in these days to grow closer to Him first - and then in that strengthened relationship - step out in faith under the Holy Spirit's guidance and power to retrieve what has been stolen by Satan and his evil ones. As God endorses each one of us, He builds us up, strengthens us, and gives us His mark on to help others identify us. It is God's approval you need more than any earthly title." Carolyn Baker, author of Soul Juice...a devotional from AllAboutGod.com, wrote. "With a pure and holy motivation, you can be used to exhibit solid, lasting fruit to a world that is desperately hungry for what is true and real. This relationship you have with the living God will be used to display God's glory and His power so that His Son is high and lifted up for the entire world to see. I cannot think of a better way to live my life. Pray, pray, pray for God's Holy Spirit power and understanding to consume you. You will never be the same again."

As I wait for the approval or disapproval of those who are seeking God's will in my pursuit of a MDiv at MTS-M, I cannot help but be amazed at how my eyes are opened to the grand site before me. Yes, there is a vast army of the reasoned and worldly that stands surrounding me in this quest for God's purposing and equipping…..but surrounding me even closer are the fiery army of the Lord of Hosts who specializes in the improbable, impossible and utter glorious plans that He has made for each and every one of His children.

If you would like more information on the Moody Theological Seminary-Michigan journey, please send me an email at navalpride2002@yahoo.com with your address and I will mail it to you.

In Christ's service,

James Hutson

Thursday, March 25

Impossible God, impossible children

"You call me Teacher and Lord, and you are right, for so I am. If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another's feet. For I have given you an example, that you also should do just as I have done to you. Truly, truly, I say to you, a servant is not greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. If you know these things, blessed are you if you do them." (John 13:13-17 ESV)

It has always been about service for me, this journey in the wilds of this world towards a destination that I've been promised and yet never have been to. It is the backbone of my faith, the evidence of the reality of its ebb and flow and the example set forth by my Messiah, Savior and Teacher. But, simple service…..the volunteering of muscles and sinew, skills and supportive roles, is never been the passion, just 'something' to do until that which God has impassioned me to join Him in doing presents itself for my service; deep abiding and passionate to the exclusion of all else. These are the deep Christians, these are the foundation of any church, any ministry and any mission. Without the deep passionate service of the connected people (purpose to 'opportunity') all is lost within the great idea of community….

But, if you have read my blog for any length of time, one of the great mistakes that the community of Christ, aka the Church, has been guilty of is telling those passionate people that they must be mundane or sacrificial in their service…….there is no place for passionate sacrifice. I was allowed, in the experience of the Bowery Mission in New York, not just to be immersed in a group of both staff and 'residents' that were passionate about God's intentional moving in their lives and community but I was immersed with thirteen other people from my community and watched as God tapped each one of us in the unique ways He had impassioned us to serve. The resultant 'mosaic' was a stunningly beautiful picture of awesome love, conviction and power that rocked the foundation of the Bowery community, not just the men behind its red doors but the open community surrounding its building. Life, messy and with broken and imperfect people, blossomed in the darkness of the worldliness surrounding those doors…..sustainable outside its walls by the renewal within them. An impossible thing, maybe, but empowered and possible because of God as evidenced by the example of His Son.

We have told ourselves for too long that the impossible is impossible. Satan has used this listless, sleepy ignorance of professing Christians to strengthen his position and disrupt lives that would otherwise be serving God's purpose and kingdom. The purposing of who we are under the blood of Christ and seen in the completeness of God's design is an impossibly achievable thing because of where we come from or who we were. We are not who we were, if we are a chosen, favored, cherished, adopted and purposed child in God.

We serve an impossible God who did the impossible thing in the sending of His Son so that we could be impossible people that scream His praises and ooze His glory without effort, without thought and with a passion that defies the storms of the seas and the tornados of the landscape……….

"Often people attempt to live their lives backwards; they try to have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they want, so they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then do what you need to do in order to have what you want." Margaret Young.

As I step into this new season of the journey…..the wind's kicking up a bit more and the sea chop is becoming something wicked…..and I wonder if this is really what I should be doing……

An impossible thing…….

Can you imagine a single father of two children going to seminary full-time and working full-time (hoping to get a job soon too)?

Okay then….imagine that same situation with one of the kids being special needs.

Imagine that 1 out of 15 students in a class is given such a waiver of the bachelor requirement, only 3 in the entire program of 30. 10% of 10%.

Imagine actually going to seminary, working full time, being in ministry, being in a relationship and doing all of this for four years instead of the seven allowed……..

Pretty impossible…….

Like a bunch of guys who became homeless, either through the systems of evil that defeated them or mistakes they made or simple economics, who have gathered on what was one of the most notorious streets in New York City and are slowly rebuilding their lives and the lives of their fellow residents to become better than they ever were, solid and secure in Christ………

Or a single mother who raises two daughters; one with diabetes and the other with asthma….who works and goes to school for years and finally gets a nursing degree……..

Or a young woman who faces an impossible choice and makes one of the hardest decisions of her life; to give her baby daughter up for adoption……..

Yeah, pretty impossible………..

"The passion to achieve what seems impossible is one of the deepest passions of mankind. One might have thought that man, being a reasonable creature, would have averted his gaze from the impossible. It would seem natural that he should give his energies to things within the compass of his powers." George H. Morrison writes in his devotional entitled The Lure of the Impossible. "But there is that within the human heart which is always suspicious of the easy thing, and yearns for victories beyond its grasp………….And the wonderful thing is that whenever Christ does that, a faith is kindled equal to accomplishment, and things that yesterday were quite impossible become perfectly possible today."

I have been called to serve…..a mighty, impossible and inspiring God……

Not quite impossible as it once seemed………………

Friday, March 12

Forever a ‘red door’ Bowery boy….

"Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? And not one of them is forgotten before God. Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows."(Luke 12:6-7 ESV)

For one hundred and thirty years, it's doors have opened and stood against the ravages of time, society and corruption to those to whom it has been created to serve…..for one hundred and one years in the current spot on the street that it has claimed for its own. My journey began on February 28th, 2010, as a travel weary band of fourteen people from a new church plant in Ann Arbor Michigan who travelled many, many hours to reach its red doors……I was one of those naïve people, though there were a few veterans, who walked into the doors of the Bowery Mission around 10pm that Sunday night. I may have glanced in a mirror at the man who walked between those two red doors if I had but known that I would never see him again. Then again, I may have not.

It was evident in the eyes that feel upon me that there wasn't much thought given to us; we were categorized as soon as we came through the door. We were the next 'crop' of volunteers, those careless souls who walk through the Bowery doors to serve those whom call the Bowery and its environs their home. A different group each week…….soon they would leave and maybe never be seen again. Ministering to the homeless is a effort that sometimes be fraught with disappointment, struggles and complicities that we cannot hope to untangle and therefore a ministry that is too often given nothing but a curtsy glance. The Bowery Mission is an opportunity for those who have the heart and the calling to be Christians to immerse themselves in the ministry of the homeless under the direction of Pastor Tom Basile. For behind the red doors of the Bowery Mission, God is doing a mighty work……and not just on the homeless men who call its walls home.

Someone asked me why I had to go to New York to work with the homeless. Until I got there, I couldn't answer.

The Bowery Mission has been doing its job well before I walked in the door and it will continue, even as I write this, to do its stated mission of "providing compassionate care and life transformation" as it has for the past one hundred and thirty years (101) at the current location. In 2009 alone, the Bowery Mission provided homeless men and women with over 346,500 meals, 73,000 nights of shelter and 43,000 articles of clothing. Not to mention 575 professional doctor appointments and 48 eye examinations. 150 lives were transformed with spiritual growth, sobriety, restored relationships, employment, housing and a plan for the future. It has hosted in its sister program 'Kids with a Promise', hosted 920 kids from NYC improvised neighborhoods at Mont Lawn Camp for a week as well as supporting academic, leadership and moral development of 12 children in the Young Scholars program and 78 teenagers in the Leadership Academy mentoring program. Over 39,000 hours of volunteer service has been given and over 2.9 million in-kind gifts have been raised. There is not much that my meager offering of a week's time could do in the Bowery's life…..or could it?

We dropped our bags off in the volunteer rooms and gathered back together to go find some pizza……when you are in New York, you've got to have some pizza from Ray's. We gathered in the tiny little walk-in place (not realizing there was a restaurant area right next store) and finally had some dinner around 10pm. Then we went back to the Bowery and fell asleep…well, most of us did. They provided, not the comfortable full and plush mattresses that I am accustomed to at home, but rather the homeless person's staple…..a thin, easily moved and efficient mattress…..life became raw when we walked in the doors of the Bowery, all the finery and coverings that we often employ in the daily living of what most of us consider life stripped away as unnecessary and wasteful.

I walked in the door feeling that I was alright, adequate and equal to the task at hand. I realized within the first day that I was totally unprepared for the life these guys lived…….they were the giants in the fight……I was a pretender, at worst, and so far from where I thought I was at the best.

My first experience was Martin…..I think he was from Puerto Rico……..who befriended me over a cup of very potent coffee made by one of the staff named Allen. God knows me very well and figured Martin's story was what I needed to hear first thing Monday morning as I contemplated what I had 'volunteered' for. Once again, as Martin told me his story, I realized just how powerful, merciful and just our God is……and how grateful I am for that mercy. Martin was addicted to horse drugs….and was pulled out of it by a pastor who dared to minister in that infested area of evilness. He had had two heart attacks and been in two comas by the time we talked. He was heading to the doctor the next day to have his heart looked at for damage. But, it wasn't the drug rescue that touched me, nor even the fact that Martin had been clean for several months as part of the program……it was the way he kept pointing to the sky, kept praising God and thanking Him for the mercy and blessings of being alive. As Martin put it, "Praise God that I am able to wake up today, get out of bed and walk down here for some coffee." Basic, simplistic and honest praise. How often do we overlook that, thinking God wants some elaborate and complex chant of praise and adoration from us before He'll accept it? Martin wasn't the exception to this rule, he was just the first I had come across to hear it from.

Throughout the week, each moment within the Bowery walls and in its chapel…….serving dinner to the countless homeless men and women, both the residents of the Bowery and the community surrounding the mission….never was God far from someone's lips. Never was there not a praise going up for the meal given, the service performed or the fellowship between the volunteers and the residents. But Monday…..oh, Monday, was the day of trial and the day I realized why God wanted me to travel all the way to the Bowery Mission in New York City to serve the homeless when there is Grace Centers of Hope and the Detroit Rescue Mission so much closer.

Because I would've ran back to the comfortable, never remained uncomfortable and therefore would have never experienced God's work raw and unblemished.

Mantel's testimony, Randolph's testimony, Mohammed's friendship, LeShane's simple humility, John's connection as a vet or even the many others whose names escape me or who's stories still overwhelm me to the point of silence. These are guys living on the raw edge of God's mercy, fully reliant upon the grace that He has promised and provisioned for them. They aren't the neat, carved from the mold, Christians and know so much better because of the frankness and realness of its application the forgiveness and love of a sacrificed Messiah. These are the rejected of the 'suburban' Christian, who has often walked on the other side of the street just to ignore the lump of humanity that is sitting on the street…..panhandling for money. Granted, there are those professionals (we met one), but in reality that is the exception to the rule and not at all endorsed by these guys nor others who form this undesired brotherhood and sisterhood called homeless. We dare to judge them, pointing to that one mistake of thinking one drink won't hurt and the subsequent fall back into alcoholism or that life surrendered to that drug that shuts out all else in its hungriness for flesh…..and we cast those so judged into the 'discard' pile……….after all, free will and such.

We would have problems fitting Mantel into that mold of prejudgment…….he simply lost his job, couldn't afford his apartment and then fell into depression……and wound up at the Bowery doors through a recommendation of another shelter. We would have problems fitting in the men and women who struggle with mental illnesses and are cast off from society as undesirables into that mold….if we were honest with ourselves. We would be sorely pressed to explain to ourselves why we should get a third, fourth or even a fiftieth chance at recurring sin and yet deny forgiveness and restoration to another who fell from grace once again because we don't want to 'enable' them. The complexities within which we have to view the sins of others lie like a log in our eyes and yet too often, as we sip our lattes and eat our fill….scrapping the discard into the trash……we try to remove the splinter from these giants who walk the front lines of the battle between souls…….

Isolated in our world of comfortable things, and yes….even in my world such as it is, I must admit to a degree of comfortableness far beyond what the men of the Bowery experience……(I have fallen far, but am still a blink away from their lives)………we forget the dangerous appetite of freedom….real, unadulterated freedom….that lies within these men's grasp; for good or for evil. If not for the efforts of valiant souls like Basile and his staff, the chaplains and the operations people, these men would fall into the evilness of unbridled freedom and be cast aside. But, in the goodness of this freedom, these men live so very close to God because there is nothing else in the way……they have chased the American dream into the ground and realized the emptiness of its promise. God stands tall for them because there is nothing obstructing their view, nothing angling for their attention and nothing tugging at them for affection but God. Don't get me wrong, they still struggle….but they live immersed in the Word, refreshed by fellowship and bolstered by the very presence of the Holy Spirit in the hallways and community rooms.

I was blessed by the team to be allowed to give the two chapel sermons that we, Mosaic, were responsible for. The Chapel meets three times a day, centered around the meal time…..you receive spiritual food and then physical consumption…..in the famous symbol of the Bowery Mission…..the heart, as Tony Carnes labeled it. "Great hearts are built in tragedies," Carnes writes in his pamphlet The Chapel: The Great Heart Of The Bowery Mission. After a tragedy in 1898, where eleven men died horrible deaths in the mission at 105 Bowery near Hester Street, the president Louis Klopsch was determined never to have it repeated. What evolved at 227 Bowery, an old coffin factory, was a renovation that was 'absolutely fireproof.' All the wood and casements were sealed in metal and the floors were steel and concrete. Dedicated in 1909, the chapel is much like its predecessor, long and decorated with verses along its walls with a 'new' gothic look. In this chapel, such famous and infamous people have used its graceful roominess for God's work or for self-promotion: William Howard Taft stopped by to say hello; JC Penny found his heart's strength in the hymns sang in its walls; Mrs. Sarah J. "Mother" Bird taught young Chinese girls in its pews; Governor Al Smith spoke of his own Bowery experiences; Eleanor Roosevelt sang here as a child; Franklin Delano Roosevelt, running for Vice President, stopped in to speak of New Yorkers compassion; NY Mayor Jimmy Walker traded witticisms with the crowd here; the Reverend Billy Sunday spoke here; Howard Meredith place commemorative flowers here; Ann Graham Lotz gave a sermon here and under the guidance of pastor Reggie Stutzman, the chapel continues to serve the community of the Bowery both as a center of worship and a resting place for the homeless each night.

But, as Pastor Tom would say, it's not about the 'famous' or 'infamous' people that came to the chapel, but that 'sleeper' who wakes in the street slowly and with groaning body stands…..to face a day that promises, in their limited view, to be a sad, discouraging day. They travel down the street named Bowery because they've heard of the promise of food for a requirement of listening to a sermon…..the possibility of hope in the dismal and grey world of raw discarded humanity…..the warmth, if for a little while, of a building where they are welcomed with open arms. As Tony Carnes writes in conclusion to his pamphlet, "Maybe, just maybe, the sleeper, a new guy, will stumble into the chapel and gain a new heart."

A humbling experience, indeed, to step into a 'visiting chaplain' role in such a historically vibrant place…..me, who haven't given voice to God's gift or calling in two years. I can only hope that I gave honor to the congregation of the Bowery and brought praise to the Father with the words I spoke on Tuesday morning service…….

For I know that my sister in Christ, Julie's drama to the music of Switchfoot and the challenging reading from Haggi presented by my sister in Christ, Vanessa, fully covered and overshadowed the simple offering of my testimony and my sermon for the final chapel service on Thursday night to the Bowery community. God called us to rock the foundations and if the talk was any indication, Mosaic was up to the challenge and the call……..

So, as I try and readjust to the life back home, I have come to realize in the fullness of this experience that the reason I had to go to New York to serve the homeless was simply because that was where God was working and inviting me to go; to reclaim the calling He's given me, to expand the compassion I feel for the lost and rejected and to do so in a place where I could not run, could not hide and could not deny His presence.

There was a bad connotation given to being a Bowery boy once…they were one of the 'famous' gangs in the northern area of the Five Points district of New York that included the Bowery section of the city, a nativist, anti-Catholic and anti-Irish gang that frequented the Bowery saloons and brothels marked by black stovepipe hats, red shirts, black flared pants, high-heeled calfskin boots, black vest and oil slicked hair. One of the most famous members was William Poole, aka Bill the Butcher. This is not the Bowery boy I would speak of being. No, the Bowery boy I speak of is marked by the red doors of the mission that shapes him, helps him realize God's definition of him and equips him for the world……a red-door bowery boy.

I left a piece of my heart in the Bowery…..I will forever be a man of the Bowery's red doors. And, if you look real close at the faces of Mantel, Randolph, Mohammed, Anthony, Allen, LeShane, Luis, Martin, Bobby and the other residents of the Bowery discipleship program…..you'll see one thing that will help you recognize them……

A family resemblance.

There is nothing I can write that would fully articulate the experience of the Bowery, nor would I want to. To do so would deny you the reason, the golden opportunity to live life raw with the men of the Bowery and to see God walking its halls. The Bowery may be famous in some people's eyes because of the celebrities who have come to its doors….but in the hearts of thousands and thousands of Bowery men, it is famous because of its compassionate and life transforming care.

Once, Billy Graham walked the Bowery's streets and had a lesson given in compassion before his famous 1957 Madison Square Garden crusade. As he faced the crowds at the crusade, he said this……

"I believe that if Jesus were here today, He would be down there much of the time with these people who need Him so much."

That is why you have to go to the Bowery Mission to serve the men of the Bowery.